SAD

Thousand of images keep on popping out in my mind, thousand of words wouldn't want to express but no one beside me. Im making myself alone, those who know me might not know me again because Im someone else. Use to be a very happy guy in the world but end up with a most stupid and useless guy. I don't know what I can do to stop all this thing happen, I really don't. I am very sad, really very sad. One site can't handle and the other side problem again. Now, jobless, family pushing, low self-confidence, challenge of relationship, all things happen to gather. Can anyone just help to escape from all this? Im facing a difficult life check point here, what I do may effect the entire rest of my life. I really very stress and sad, I feel I din smile for long time, this happen always not something good to me.

Telling friend about secret thing but no can keep secret, its hurts. I really dunno how to face others when the day come or maybe, I wil never have a chance to meet them.

It happen

It happened. It does :)

Going to

I think something is going to happen but I don't what is it, perhaps it not a bad thing.
Really don't how it will go that worst but one thing I know, is all bout me.

So ...... go hit the wall till bleeding and than I think something will work out.

*I feel that you are tired with things happened recently, I won't stop you again from doing what you want, even for the worst thing as well. Just let me know when it really happen so that I can arrange myself. Thx you

Sorry

Im deeply apologize to those who involved to me due to my own problem.

There are no problem at the beginning and Im creating it.I deserve to have this ending and this treatment; public listed annoying people, controlvative, not understanding, passasive and know how to packing yourself well.

Im apologize with my sincere and hope things will change soon. I am about to losing everything.
No one can help me unless myself but the motive is not there.

I really don't all this happen. PLEASE~

Worst

The feeling get worst; I thought it will be recover soon but end up getting worst.
I don't what happen but just know that something is wrong.

At this moment, I suddenly can understand how my friend feel in the past; I know why those action taken, I understand the purpose of doing it.

Now I already become the most hate one by everyone and Im doing such thing to throw my own face. I don't how to face others when i meet them; it doesn't create any good impression at first but end up with something else.

Im losing myself, where I suppose to go?

Reason

Everyone do thing because of a reason.
When things decided, there are always thousand reason for you to do it.
When things haven't decide, there are also thousand of reason to push it away.

There no right or wrong because this not related to ethical issue; just different people got different mindset. thats all

Obsessed

I had learn a new word "obsessed'. Sometimes being too obsesses will create alot of problem.
Just get scold gao gao and make the whole office know about what happen actually; think back really feel so stupid which do not know how to choose a best time and a good place to talk. But human is like, need to hit wall only when u know you are wrong.

Just have a quite long conversation with a old friend, found out that alot of things actually is not exist; but is ur mind tell you that it will happen. Why your mind will process in this way? Because unhappy past make you think in this way. So, how will you overcome it? if there is a solution, this post wouldn't been posted. So....there is no solution.

But thing is no never and ever, thing that have to chance is the way of thinking. Try how to be open minded, accept things, look far, think from positive way, give and take, should or shouldn't, learn how to communicate, how to express yourself and how to make your mind clear enough; i think it will helps. Last but not least, i think self confidence must be call back.

Don't why i had lost my confidence all the while, i thought im getting it back but it doesn't. When thngs happen again and again, it shows the confidence is not there. So.....? For me, the main solution for recover confidence is to prove that you are the best. How to know you are the best? physically and phsycologically. You need make yourself the top of your career, earn the biggest money which others cant, treat your loves one which others cant do, give her the best that you can give. All this make yourself outstanding and your confidence back.

Above is what im thinking; I might be very gia su or show off but this is what in my mind.

Losing 输着

"You are losing me" so it means that Im losing to someone or Im losing to myself?

Hehe. I think it should myself lo.Aiks, so, I need fight against my mind.Opss....

Challenges

Life really full of challenges, from environment especially.
Been challenges reall don't feels good but we need overcome it so that we can go future.

No doubt, im now challenging with somethg, but myself also dunno wat is it, maybe jobless gua...hahaha...or online game attraction but I know i will overcome it with my ways.

I will prove how i overcome it with my future. I know I can!!!!!!